Wednesday, February 28, 2007

time is running out

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The project is due exactly 2 weeks from today. Starting today it is super important not to waste any free moment I have.

I am wasting time now. I had an hour break, but spent it scheduling my night and day tomorrow.

3 more days of work then I am off to annotate until I go insane and write an effing long essay. Yay!

I slept in

I set my alarm for 6:15.

"F that," I said when it went off. I went to bed at 12:45.

I woke up at 8. Then I went to the other room and Dustin said he was leaving in 10 minutes. Oh. I normally go to school with him on the bus because he has class at 10 and I have it at noon. Well, apparently I didn't think it was necessary to rush if I didn't have to. Now I'm sitting here in bed, accomplishing nothing, and it's 8:53. It's pretty sad that I don't have motivation and it's week 8. Deadline approaching.

I also have to study new spanish conjugations. I'm sure we'll have a quiz today. Oy.

Renting rooms in the lib is perfect. We totally dance partied in there then worked. Genius.

Double tall sugar free soy no whip cinnamon dolce latte, please.




That was yesterday. What a delightful way to start the day. Too bad the only thing I accomplished was 3/5 of an annotation. The gov't ones are hard! Ugh.

Thoughts of yesterday:

"I can do this, this is managable. I have 2 weeks."

"OMG I am not going to be able to finish. There is no way."

"I have to finish it, I'll finish it."

"How the hell am I going to finish this in time?"

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

bleh

I can't focus. Mini freak out time. I want to go home and nap, but I won't get anything done there. It's so hard to work when I'm effing tired, though. I went to see Sasha today and it wasn't as effective as I wanted it to be. I'm worried about my third subtopic because it might be too large for my paper.

....hours later..


We're now in the lib. We reserved a room from 10pm-12am. GOAL: Annotate in 25 mins. GO!

Fermez la bouche!

Remember that one time when it was quiet in the library? That's a crazy idea. I'm pretty sure that you should shut your damn mouth so I don't have to listen to every word in your conversation.

I'm irritable and someone is panting in the isles of books. Creeps.

Monday, February 26, 2007

S.p.e.l.l. C.h.e.c.k

A- Ass hurting from sitting in the library for 6 hours.
N- No sleep for a week before an assignment is due for discussion.
N- Naps are a necessity.
O- Often want to slam my head against the table.
T- Takes about 9439853948593485938459384759384 hours to really do this paper.
A- Assholes who don't have jobs should be beaten.
T- Two weeks till it's due. Oh my!
E- Everytime I think about this class I barf.

Onward! Jordan Bergstrom!

I hate Prof Campbell's stupid weekly messages. They just give me a stomach ache..or the ache might be that I have consumed A LOT of raw cookie dough in the past 24 hours. Baking seems to ease my mood. At this rate, week 10 in my house might look like freakin sweet life. I really should annotate. Please make it go away.

*cough*

I'm coughing today. I will be so mad if I am getting sick. It's not fair. I wash my hands, I use Purell, but those inconsiderate bitches who hack their shit all over the place are rude. Today I was on the bus and a lady behind me was coughing the whole time. Then we transferred to the EmX and she sat next to me and kept hacking into her hand, then grabbed the damn pole! I bet her hand was still wet!

Ugh, it is so irritating. I CAN'T get sick. I won't be able to focus and finish my project.

I need some vitamin C. And a good night sleep. My eyes are still burning.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

As the sun goes down...view from the 3rd floor.

It's getting dark and here I am alone in the library again. I've done 2 annotations today so far (more than usual on Sundays), but I really need to do at least 2 more. I had lunch with Dustin today. It was good to actually sit down with him and not think about my project. I'm sick of pushing my friends away so I can work on this. I truly believe this class is not helping me realize the pressure of "real life deadlines." People with real jobs who have deadlines are not students taking 3 or more classes and working a part time job 25+ hours a week. I'm sorry, Prof. Campbell, I can't quit my job for you. I'm not privileged enough to have Mommy and Daddy paying my damn tuition and providing an AMEX gold so I can buy whatever I need.

I got invited to an event on Facebook today to proof-read other people's annotations. It's for people who are all the way done with all 35 annotations. It's this Saturday. Yeah right.
There was another for proof-reading the essay the following Saturday. I'll probably be close to done by then, but still, no thanks. F you.

My back hurts. I've taken a short break and now it's time to return to annotation Hell.

Goodbye.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

My current status

Sources: 24

Need
Journalistic: 2
Books: 1
Government: 5
Institutional: 2
Interviews: 2 (1 already scheduled, so really 1)

Total: 11

11, that's managable in 1 week, right? Well I really have 5 days, Sunday through Thursday. I think I can do it. I just have to lock myself in the library and search. The outline really helped like they said. Now I can focus my 11 new sources to where I have big holes in my project.

11 new sources still sounds scary.

Annotations: 14


Still need to annotate: 21 (ouch)


I set a goal for tonight and didn't do it. I'm going to go to bed and work hardcore tomorrow. I have to.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

End of the day



Woke up: 6:30 a.m.
Arrived at library: 8:40 a.m.
ANTH lecture: 10:00 a.m.
Back to library: 11:30 a.m.
Left library to eat: 5:00 p.m.
Law Library: 6:00 p.m.
Returned to Knight library: 6:30 p.m.
Starbucks: 8:45 p.m.
Returned to library: 9:00 p.m.
Left library: 12:00 a.m.
Off to shower/bed: 1:00 a.m.

Coffee spills: 2





Freak-outs: too many to count.

"I have to go number two. I don't have time for this!"

I have to go number two now.

Nate has to poop. And i am laughing about nothing.

Oh my god this shit is fire. And in Nate's case...literally. HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

EWW.. i'm a foul bitch.
He snapped out of beast mode too.. it's all good. Now, we are just talking about if we will have friends anymore. We want to be friends with the girls sitting behind us doing their outlines too, to make us feel better about ourselves. Wait, they probably are writing their ACTUAL papers at their leisure because they have a life and no job. Hookers.
Nate must have fallen in.. dibs his Blackberry.





I think I've gone nutzo.

Dibs the reserve room, you bitch.

Espresso shot count: 11

About an Odwalla filled with water-
Nate: "This tastes like tap water..because it is..a little pipey."
After I chugged his water.." I have a cold sore.. lol hahaha NOT. He almost barfed.


We're both to the drunk/laughing/tired/oh shit/ mode.
And Nate is heaving and burping over his free cinnamon dolce latte and cinnamon scone. WHORE.

Nate asked whether or not they lock us in here after midnight. I said I'd hope so and I'd want the reserve room. Couches and t.v.s and a whole library full of videos. Maybe I could watch all the monkey sex videos I've been skipping in ANTH because I've been doing info hell instead.

Off to annotate some bums.

Free Starbucks!

We just went to Starbucks to fill up on caffeine and the girl at the register rang up Jordan, then the girl behind us totally skipping me. The guy making the drinks said, "it's free."

SWEET!

And it was a Grande Triple Soy Sugar-free Cinnamon Dolce Latte. That shit is like $5. WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Back to hell....

Holes in the project

They told us that when we do the outline it will make us realize where there are holes in our projects.

Well, even though by now I've made progress on the outline I realized I have major holes in my project.

"You shouldn't have big holes in your outline. That's bad. If you do, you may want to consider dropping the class."

Tomorrow is the last day to drop. I told Jordan if I don't finish the outline by 2 a.m. that I am going to drop.

I can't imagine how bad it would suck to drop it. I'd have to take it again or change majors. I obviously can't realistically drop. I'd lose financial aid for dropping under 12 credits, fall behind and not be a junior at the end of the year, and probably kick myself. Hard.

I took a break from 5-6 to eat and relax for a bit. My thai tofu and rice was delicious. Then I went to the Law library to find something. Talk about intimidating. I didn't like it. The librarian at the documents counter in Knight told me to go talk to someone there about finding gov't docs. I didn't.

I'm sure I'll be at the library until it closes tonight. Jordan is coming back and we're going to get coffee and spit this shit out.

Current mood: indifferent

Feeling better

I was grumpy earlier. I said I was going through the stages of the grieving process: denial, sadness, anger, etc. I snapped a few times at the only 2 people I hang out with at school. They forgave me (I think). I can't get ahold of Alexis...never mind, she just IMed me.

Anyway, I've passed the beasty stage. I got another annotation done and I'm kinda figuring out my third subtopic. I think I might write about marriage, but I don't want to get TOO into it or get stuck with too broad sources.

Tonight I have to do my whole outline, possibly some more annotations, and find more sources. I am going to venture to the law library in a little bit to pick up one thing I already found and maybe (hopefully) find some government documents.

I'm jealous of Jordan's 30 sources. I just counted the ones I'm certain I will annotate and it's 22. I also have 2 other journalistic sources I printed that I may or may not use. I am going to go over those tonight also.

I'm down one book because of that stupid publisher on one. I hope I can find another! I'm worried.

I have tons of bookmarks in my "Info Hell" folder that I still have to re review to see if they're worth it. I may have more sources I forgot about. Let's hope.

Well, I've been on a "break" for 10 minutes and need to get back. I want to go get food and go to the law lib, but I'll be sad to leave this perfect table. I'm not going to be able to focus on an empty stomach, so that will have to outweigh my table.

More later.

Beast Mode Activated

I feel a little better about my situation today even though I am so far behind I still want to vom. I found 3 more sources today bringing the grand total to 30. Y-E-S! Nate brought out his beastiness but I understand.. it's crunch time and we are both behind. I skipped french to work on the outline and have managed to want to take naps in 5 minute increments. Didn't work though... too many things running through my head. I think i've spent about 5000 hours in the library and coulg give directions with my eyes closed. I almost passed out yesterday from tired-ness and thank god I could sleep for 40 minutes before I went to work.

I'm not looking forward to a late night again.. but only 19 days and this horrid thing will be someone else's problem .


Thanks to the Italians for inventing espresso. I am taking straight shots during weeks 9 & 10. Can't wait to annotate Saturday night. NOT.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

My body is feeling it

My whole body is tired and sore.

I was telling one of my coworkers that I've been getting up at 6 a.m. and going to bed after midnight and she gave me this powder you put in water and it makes a vitamin drink. It was disgusting, but I drank all of it. I am malnourished. I haven't eaten a vegetable in 3 days. Ew.

The essay outline is due Friday. It is Wednesday night and I don't have any of it done. I don't even have 3 clearly defined subtopics. I only have one. Tomorrow is el día en la biblioteca. I am going to the lib at 7:30 and I will be there until my class from 10-11, then I will stay there until I finish that damn outline. Maybe I'll finish it before midnight when the library closes.

I'm so tired, I think it would be better if I went to bed now since I'll be there all day tomorrow rather than me doing zombie annotations then getting no sleep and not focusing tomorrow. Death is coming.

Ugh.

Screwed

"I'm behind," I always say. They say I should have 30 annotations by now.

It just hit me that I'm trying to do this outline and it's impossible. I don't have enough annotations for it. I am going to die. A bunch of my sources are at home so I can't just review them now. What do I do? Thursday will be HELL. For real.

I promise I don't look like shit all the time

by Jordan

I feel like i look like shit when i've come to school lately. I don't care to wash my hair in the mornings anymore because it just takes up precious time. Dark circles and greaseball pony tails have become the norm. I also require three shots of espresso to even get my eyes to stay open in the morning. I always am on a roll late at night now since that's my only time to work on stuff, but I always think, "I'll go to bed and get up early so I can sleep." It doesn't work for me anymore. I should just write like a beast until 2 am because my brain is functioning and has been in the zone for 3-4 hours. I've been up since 6:45 and I just now feel awake. My body is going to spontaneously combust...but please, not until till week 10 and then I leave to go to Hawaii. THANK THEE GODS.

Good morning, sunshine




Today started off fabulous with a 6:15 alarm.

Jord picked me up at 7:45 and we went to Albertsons for some fruit and Starbucks. On our way out, she (tripped?) dropped her fruit and about 2oz of coffee on the floor. Great way to start the day!



Quotes of the day...so far

"I feel like a begger. I need silver coins, any amount of sleep, and a full meal."

"I am the walking dead"

"My legs feel like noodles"

"Give me 5 minutes. Let me rest in peace!"

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Foto del día

OW

By Nate

My eyes hurt más y más as time goes on. We're 35 minutes away from the library closing and I've only done 1.75 annotations today. Crap. I can't even do 4 in a day, how lame. Will I finish on time? Well, I have to. Will I have a really shitty week 9? Abso-fucking-lutely. If you're my friend, don't expect to see me that week unless we have a class together. I'm not working so I'll be camping out in the library. I should take that Saturday off too. I wonder if he'll give it to me. I'll try to remember to ask tomorrow.

I still feel incredibly incompetent. This shouldn't be this hard. I should have figured out sub-topics weeks ago and shouldn't be scrambling to figure them out so I can wake up at 6 a.m. and work on this damn outline.

It's too bad I am not on a full-ride with tons of extra money so I don't have to work and can do my homework all day.

It's also too bad that Sam is having a party on Friday for her birthday and I'm considering leaving early to work on it. That's bad. I normally would argue that I deserve a break, but honestly I haven't done anything for the past two weekends.

It's time to create my schedule for tomorrow and go home.

Boo on this shit.

I'm aging

By Nate

Today when I looked in the mirror around 6:30 a.m. I noticed black circles under my eyes. This class is killing me. I've never spent every day doing homework until almost (or past) 1 a.m. Maybe that's because I had a crappy high school education, or maybe it's because I've taken easy classes. I don't know.

My eyes are burning under the strange colored lights in the Knight Library. The heater is clicking and moaning, and the reflection of people walking by distracts me. I need to download some dance music to block out the outside influences (as Ms Cleo would say, "What are these outside influences, people I'm seeing around you by the moon card?")

How cliché, right? Dance music. Shut up. I like La Bouche. And Aqua.

Back to work, kinda.

Last time I checked, this is the quiet area

By Nate

This asshole won't shut up in the library. He keeps making his phone make noise because it dies and makes the turning off tone, then he turns it back on and it makes another tone.

Then he called his friend, "I need to borrow your phone to make a call, man. My phone is dead"

Then the guy came over and they talked in normal voices for 5 minutes.

Then he calls someone, "I need help with these problems, call me back, peace."

Now another guy is helping him with his damned Chemistry.

SHUT UP! I'm trying to annotate.


Thanks.

I don't even have time to bathe or eat a full meal

by Jordan..So this is night number 2 in the library. Me and Nate were here last night. I was here for 4 hours and then ended up watching Salute your Shorts on Helga for the last 30 min. I needed some sanity. Then we hardcore dance partied all the way home.I feel like I live here. I want to sleep in the hallways on the fourth floor and just bring a mattress. Damn info hell. It's really happening to me. Everything I ever heard about this class is true .. times 100. I calculate daily how many hours I am going to be able to work on it and then die of anxiety when I realize I still have like 17 annotations to do. I had a triple shot coffee, a banana, a lean cuisine, a string cheese and some triscuits to eat today. There's no time to eat a full meal..that would be wasting 15 minutes I could be doing researching. Efffff this shizzzzzzz. Off to annotate.

New Address:
Knight Library
1300 Kincaid St
Eugene, OR 97401

I like packages:)

Sunday, February 18, 2007

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

By Nate

So I should have 30-32 annotations done by now.

I have 13. I have to do 3 every day to catch up by the end of the week. Will I die? Probably.


I feel like a loser.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Thoughts of the day

Last one today, I promise. Next time I'll do photos and thoughts in one post.
by Nate

Some thoughts I had while working on my annotations tonight:

“I’m so glad annotations can’t be longer than 2 pages.”

“Should I drink my cold coffee just to finish it?”

“What the hell does this guy mean?”

“OMG IT ISN’T A BOOK! IT ISN’T AN EFFING BOOK!”

“BTWB (Back to work bitch)”

Pictures of the day

By Nate



Hell Week 6 (continued)

By Nate
via Blackberry

As I sit here on the bus I am feeling guilty for not working on info hell. I've felt like this for a couple weeks now. I'll be in the shower thinking about it, laying in bed thinking about how I could be working instead of wasting time laying here and not sleeping, and even feeling guilty for doing homework other than my project. I talked to Amanda Reed today who told me not to stress as much. She said she only had 15 or so sources at this point and that I, having 21, was ahead. According to the professor and GTFs if I don't have 27 sources by the end of the week I should drop the class.

1. No way in hell am I dropping it now after 6 weeks stressing myself out.

2. That is rude. We don't have 24 hours a day to commit.

Well, I am going to try to be more positive about all of this from now on. I know I won't be completely positive and that I will use this blog to bitch about how much I hate this class, how much I hate the J school, or how much I hate myself for not being more on top of things from the start.


Tomorrow warm-up 3 is due:
4 annotations: 1 interview, 1 book and 2 anything else.


Wish me luck!

Hell Week 6

By Nate

We're over the hump of Week 6, and I didn't get my Hump Day treat. Unless, of course, you call a headache a treat.

I just completed my first interview, yay! I'm a little worried about getting my other two because I don't know who to contact.

No work today, I have to annotate, annotate, annotate. I say that a lot and then never do it.

DON'T FAIL!

More later....